Overwhelmed

As I sit in my living room looking at the mess that my children have created once again and thinking about the dishes that need to be done the laundry that needs to be washed, the vacuuming and scrubbing I feel the rush of being overwhelmed once again.

I am exhausted, not only from my kids getting up at 6am, but from the constant need from my kids all day long. Just when I think they have everything they need, there is always one more thing. I turn my back for a second and my daughter who is newly walking has fallen and hit her head once again. Or Logan has been too rough with her and needs that gentle reminder to take it easy with her since he is double her weight almost!

I just need a minute for myself. To not be a Mom for just a minute. To feel like my needs are being taken care of, but I don't get a break. From sun up to sun down my world revolves around my children. Don't get me wrong I love being a Mother and I love my children more then words can express, but I feel like I forget about myself from time to time. The feelings of loneliness start to creep in, I can't remember the last time I had a proper hair cut or took a shower without being interrupted (or simply just having time for one). Or the last time I got to eat in silence without my daughter trying to steal my food. I am so busy making sure my kids have everything they need that most times I just go without.

Motherhood is a full time job, usually with no vacation time and there definitely is no over time pay. You usually get forgotten because your kids take center ring. Everyone calls to see how the kids are doing, and you sit there silently in the back of your mind saying well what about me? We put on a fake smile and try to pretend that we have it altogether. Trying to live up to societies expectations, always having a home cooked meal prepared and actually tackling those 20 pinterest projects with our kids that look like they have been done by professionals.

My kids are not perfect and neither am I. I don't have it together everyday. I don't have planned out craft projects for them everyday. Most days we just go with the flow. So while I have the feeling of being overwhelmed today, tomorrow is a different day. Starting fresh each morning.

Learn from yesterday

Live for today

Hope for Tomorrow

 

~Albert Einstein~